When Life moves at an easy pace and you think, that after settling down with great difficulty, to a new routine and a new lifestyle, you feel at peace and tend to relax and feel happy that, finally you have found something meaningful to live your life for.
You feel content and a sense of rhythm sets in, but, little do you know that this was the silence before a storm, that could engulf and suck you in, without leaving a trace of any of your remnants! This storm catches you unaware and you have no clue that it is going to strike you with such force, that you are knocked off your wits!
This is the storm of suppressed emotions. Those emotions, which you keep in your subconscious state and they keep ringing in your head, while you are facing a difficult situation in your real life. When these situations arise you act accordingly and remain strong and pull through each struggle and difficulty, by mustering enough inner strength with a brave face and emerge victorious. But, every time you fight it out, you keep a set of fears and emotions, deeply hidden in your heart.
Time passes and struggles, sufferings, diseases and countless issues keep coming and each time, you keep piling up those small and big fears in the back of your mind. It is more like a volcanic pit where strong emotions are continuously being thrown one after the other and then comes a time when the pit fills up and it can take no more. That is the time, when all the suppressed emotions burst and they overflow out of your subconscious state, with such force that you are yourself not able to understand, that, what has happened with you!
You start falling deep down that pit and it is like there is no stopping and you feel like you are caught in a whirlpool of strong flowing winds, which can destroy you and finish you off! Initially, you are dumbfounded and totally at a loss, as to what is happening, as you become a victim of your own emotions!
It takes time for you to understand, as to how you will cope with these absolutely terrifying conditions and how you will get out of it, as you seem like you are blown like a dry twig in cold and ruthless winds! Slowly as time passes and of course with the help of an understanding and experienced counselor, you gradually come to terms with your negative and suppressed emotions.
You are now in a stage, where you are in an extremely difficult mental state, as, you are face to face with those deep-seated fears. Now is the time when you really need to be strong and explain to yourself that all is well and these fears were justified, but you did a great job in facing those fears, and in real life, you handled the difficult struggle, with absolute Valiance!
This takes a lot of time, depending on how much time you are taking to explain yourself and calm your surging negative emotions, which keep attacking you ruthlessly!
But, life goes on and in real life, there are numerous responsibilities and you have to manage them, along with coping with this internal storm. Believe me, it is the most difficult thing, which any person would be doing! On the one hand, you are dealing with extreme negativity and oscillating between a plethora of countless questions and your mind is feverishly trying to control and keep itself balanced in the storm, while on the other hand your some very demanding responsibilities, which have come to the forefront.
Now, what do you do? You have no choice but to put a brave front and complete your responsibilities with a smile! When you finally finish completing all your current jobs, that is when realization dawns on you, that, ” Oh my God!”, you made it once again!
That is when you feel that your internal Valiance and your sheer grit has won and trust me it is the most exhilarating feeling ever! You feel victorious and happy that this time you won over all the suppressed emotions and caught yourself in time and controlled them and brought yourself to a state where you know that you have made it!
You feel exhilarated and applaud yourself and feel like celebrating and savoring each moment of this incomparable joy. One faces troubles, issues, sufferings and countless problems in one’s life, they are easy to handle at one level, as you are fighting with the outside forces, but when the fight is within you and it is threatening you like your own cruel enemy, then to fight out your own demons is the most difficult task on Earth!
I did it, as I am a valiant indomitable spirit, with a never say die attitude and I am a die-hard fighter! After this victory on my own self-created suppressed emotions, I feel ecstatic, and now I am joyous beyond words!
I am getting back to my normal life and feeling calm and I have certainly found a way, with new goals and horizons to scale.
Life has been a struggle no doubt, but, after this particular victory, I feel stronger and more determined and totally prepared to take on the next phase of it, with a lot of enthusiasm.