Motherhood is a boon for any woman.When a woman becomes a mother then she experiences the most beautiful aspect of her life. When a woman first comes to know that she is pregnant and she is going to have a baby in a few months, then she is on the brink of the start of a lovely experience which will be a part of her life forever.When a woman carries her baby in her womb then she goes through an ethereal experience of being the closest to her baby in his nascent months when he has not even taken birth.When she first feels her baby moving inside her then the feeling is heavenly that cannot be expressed in words.

A baby brings a lot of joy in woman’s life. Her day starts with her baby and ends when her baby sleeps.Her baby’s smile makes her day and when her child takes his first steps then her heart jumps with joy. For a woman her child is her life and every single new development in her child makes her feel elated.For a mother who is bringing up her little bundle of joy, her child is the world for her and no matter how he looks whether fair or dark, for the mother her child is the most beautiful and the most attractive child in the world.

A mother is an epitome of sacrifice and when she brings up her child she never thinks that she is doing some duty or a favour to someone, she thinks that it is the most important job in the world for her.What she feels for her child is something which only she can feel and the child for whom she is having that feeling.Motherhood calms down the woman and makes her more mature and wiser and when she takes care of her child she feels so special and when her child smiles at her then she feels blessed and privileged.

For a child his mother is the most important person in his life and he really cares for her as she takes care of his every need and whim and fancy.When the mother and child are together then they don’t need anyone else as they are complet with each other. When the child cackles and laughs with his mother then it is the most beautiful sight to watch.The pair are always happy with each other and child knows that all his needs will be taken care of by the mother no matter what.

Every mother always takes care of her child, even when there are adverse situations she has to face while taking care of him. When the child is sick and the mother has to take care of the child then she never complains to anyone and she takes care of him despite facing all sorts of problems.Sickness of any kind whether it is short or long the mother is always there for her child.

Women who have kids with lifelong diseases such as a case of mental retardation or incurable diseases then the relation between a mother and the child reaches another level. A child with a abnormal brain is always very difficult to handle and it is only the mother who knows what is best for her child and she goes beyond her physical abilities in taking care of the child.

I have seen cases where very shockingly the woman leaves her disabled child forever only because she has social pressure and she cannot take care of the child! I had been to an institute where I saw a lot of women leaving their mentally retarded kids to the place and did not come back for hours to pick up their child.They just wanted to be away from their kids. For them their kids were like burdens and they did not have the heart to let go social pressure and take care of the child with their whole heart. I think somewhere deep down even they wanted to get rid of their mentally disabled child.

It is shocking that how can a mother be like this, when I heard of this I was shocked beyond words. A mother is an epitome of love and sacrifice and when she fails to do her duty then it not only shocking but also such a strange phenomenon that any normal person cannot understand as to why some women behave like this.

Motherhood is certainly a boon a privilege which given to us by God and we should always do our duty of bringing up our kids in the best possible way.When you are a mother you should understand that it is your moral duty to take care of your child no matter what. If the child is sick then it is not his fault, then why should a mother ignore him and leave him alone.

When you are a mother you should understand your duties and be a good mother as it is mother who actually makes the society. It she who rears her child ad teaches him how to be a good citizen. It is the values she gives to her child which makes a person in his life. A woman has to be very careful while rearing her child and it is good motherhood which makes a person’s whole life and his nature.

Henceforth whenever you become a mother you should realise that when you are bringing up your child you are doing a very important job and we should all do good job of it as it is our prime duty towards sour society.

Manisha was an absolutely beautiful woman who was not only attractive but she was an intelligent woman too. The best part was that she not even aware of her beauty as she was not praised so much for it by her close ones. As she was humble, so her beauty lay within and she was very beautiful inside. She was a gem of a person who had a heart of gold, she was very generous and kind-hearted and had all the attributes to make a loving and adoring wife. Any man would be blessed to have such a gem of a person as his wife. Another feather in her cap was a very gentle nature and how she understood her circumstances and adjusted herself accordingly. She had a naturally sacrificing nature and when she sacrificed for her close ones, she never gave it a second thought as she felt it was her duty to do so.

When Manisha was of marriageable age, she never thought that how her husband should look like, she only wanted a good human being as her life partner. She was lucky to get married to a very nice person, who was a very good human being, who was very understanding and caring.When she got married she never thought that she would be so lucky to have such a good family, where she would get a lot of love and care and being in joint family she was showered with even more care and affection.

Life was beautiful for Manisha and things were really going on very well with her and her husband and they were  having a lovely time with each other during the day and night as well! Her life was like a dream any young woman would see for herself ,where she had all the joys in her lap. The only hitch which she faced was  the erratic work schedule of her husband. He was a workaholic and he hardly had time for her as he worked thirty days a month! When they had to go out for dinners she had to ask her husband days in advance before they finally went for that dinner. Despite all this things were going on very fine with Manisha and her husband, when suddenly one day things changed drastically.

Even though Manisha had always felt that her husband loved her completely, she used to feel that somehow her husband was not fully committed to her. She noticed that when it came to talking intimately or exchanging thoughts in a very personal way, her husband used to shy away and turned very indifferent suddenly. It was so strange as they were hardly married for about a few months and already there was this indifference. She could not pin-point as to what was the reason and why did her husband show this indifference towards her.

In the beginning she thought that maybe they were new to each other that is why he could not commit fully to her.As time passed the indifference grew and Manisha could not take it anymore ,though they were having a good sex life but, when there  are emotional walls between a husband and wife then things are never okay.One fine day Manisha decided to confront her husband and ask him as to what was wrong and why was he becoming indifferent towards her.Her husband was initially reluctant to tell her anything and told her that all her feelings were non confounded and he was not indifferent towards her and loved her a lot.But, when Manisha insisted and gave various examples when it was very clear that he had become indifferent, then he told her his story of his previous affair with a classmate and how he wanted to marry her and could not do so due to parental pressure.

Manisha was shocked and she could not utter a word when she heard her husband out and when he told her that he and his girlfriend had had a very painful breakup, she just broke down and really could not understand what to do. In the beginning she just retrieved into her shell and hardly spoke to her husband, though he tried to console her a lot but Manisha felt cheated and her first instinct was to leave her husband for a few days and go to her mother’s place and live there for few days days, before she came to terms with this new and life changing revelation.

She took about two or three weeks to recover and she comforted herself by just one thought that now her husband loved her and now when she was pregnant she had to be doubly careful with her thoughts and emotions as it could affect her unborn child adversely.She did not tell about this affair of her husband to her parents as she thought, that they might get worried. She decided to take up the matter with her husband full on and try and understand the problems he might have face when he had broken up with his girlfriend and now she felt it was her moral duty to support her husband despite all odds and give him all her love and care more so now. At least now she knew why her husband was indifferent and now with help of her balanced attitude and broad minded thinking she thought of talking out things with him and turning things in her favour.

Finally when she returned home she was six months pregnant and everyone in the family was doting on her and pampering her with all  her favourite foods and her husband, though he did look apologetic was very caring and affectionate towards her.That night she sat and talked out a lot of things with her husband and when he convinced her that, that woman was his past and now he would not be indifferent towards her, only then she heaved a sigh of relief and lay down in her husband’s arms and thanked  God that she could overcome this crisis in her life.

Only with the help of her balanced attitude and understanding behaviour she could remove the shades of the lingering memories of her husbands girlfriend in their life.It is difficult for any woman to even think that there is any woman in her husband’s life whether in the present or in the past but, if the woman is wise and takes a lot things into consideration then she can overcome the crisis in no time.

 I start my day at six in the morning when I wake up and then rouse my kids from sleep from school.They get ready while prepare their milk ,lunch and breakfast .After I drop them to school I come  back, relax for sometime with the newspaper and a cup of tea.and I put on the news on the television too. By doing so I open up myself to the happenings of the previous day.I really enjoy this part of the day as I am undisturbed and I calmly read the various happenings in solitude.

    At around eight or eight thirty my husband wakes up and he starts his daily activities of getting ready for office.While he is getting ready I prepare his breakfast and after he leaves I settle down with my laptop.I start checking my blog status and check my mails and during that duration the doorbell keeps ringing with the dhobi, milkman and the maids coming in.After the maids start their work, i settle down with my blogging and writing stories.

   I must say that the satisfaction I get in writing is immense and because I have no disturbance I am able to write even more efficiently.After about two hours I go for a walk in the nearby park and after that I come back and freshen up.Then I have my lunch and then I watch some TV.After that my daughter comes back at two o’clock and then i give her her lunch.After that we sit and chat with other talking about our day and after an hour my son comes back from school.I give him lunch and then he changes clothes and starts watching some TV.

   I then come to my bedroom and start reading some book and listening to some music.After about an hour, son comes to me with his home work  and after he completes his work, he rushes off to the neighbouring park and I sit with a cup of tea and a magazine.The my maids come and I get the evening work done and after that my son comes back from the park and then my husband comes back from work.i give him tea and then we sit and chat after that he sits with his alptop and completes his work of the office and I start laying out the table for dinner.

  At around  eight thirty we have dinner and then we all go for a walk and after returning we all sit and chat and chill out before retiring to bed.

   I know my daily routine is not too exciting, but that is a day in most of our families.Things become exciting only when there is festival or an occasion to celebrate,but normal routine are just the one which I have above.

Today I am really angry, as for no reason I am being insulted and blamed for no fault of mine.If you were in my place even you would be angry as it is a very peculiar situation for most of us.I feel so agitated that someone is trying to overpower me and rule my decisions and discretions whereas actually they have no power and damn authority to do so!

  It really feels bad when someone tries to dominate you and tries get you to do things even though those things are not in your power.It feels bad that how can anyone stoop to such low levels when their desire or wish is not fulfilled and then when they listen to a no then they feel let down and insulted for no reason.I think this is the worse that anyone can do.After all what authority does anyone have to make someone do anything.Actually these are mentally deranged people who are living under this illusion that they are the best and everyone else will do everything according to their whims and fancies.

   I am shocked at their immaturity and the narrow mindedness.They don’t have a heart to take a no for an answer and when they actually listen to a no they can’t believe it and the worse part is that they start insulting and hurling irrelevant abuses which have no base at all. I feel pitiful towards these kinds of people as I feel that they are entangled in their own trap throughout their lives and most of the time they end up as being recluses and losers in their lives!

   If I actually have to analyse them closely, then I feel that they are truly very weak inside and that is the reason they have a false facade on the outside to show the people that they are strong but inside they are very weak and scared of the world.

  Anyways whatever is the reason I feel relieved after writing this blog and telling that I am angry and you will be surprised that now I am not angry anymore!    

 What is pain? Well if I have to define what pain is, in simple terms then it is the feeling of discomfort when you get hurt anywhere on your body.It is the message given by your mind that some part of your body is uncomfortable, it has been hurt. But pain in the larger sense is the most predominant feeling in a person’s life. It is pain which evokes sadness, grief and desperation. Now you will ask me how can one  feeling of pain evoke such varied kind of sad emotions. Pain is such an intense emotion that when you think about it a host of varied visions cross your mind.

    You might think of the pain you felt when you lost your lover to death or to someone else, you  might think of the pain you felt you felt when you lost one of your beloved, your son, daughter or parent or grandparent or any other close one. You might also think of the pain of being neglected and ignored in love, you might also think of the pain you are feeling as your close one is suffering due to a disease or an ailment. You might think of the pain you might have felt when justice was denied to you and you did not get justice due to a wrong committed towards you.

    So, pain manifests itself in such magnitude in your life that sometimes you don’t even realise that you are in the midst of such intense pain as it numbs your sense of time and you tend to stop measuring the time duration in which you were in pain. Like an expecting mother who is in labour pain can never actually make out that how long has she been writhing in pain and waiting for her baby to be delivered.

    Pain, when I come to think of it as a child, then, I would only think of the physical pain I felt when I got hurt anywhere on my body. I can also think of the pain I felt when I lost a race even though I tried my best. I still remember vividly how I slipped and fell and I came second in a race on my sports day of the school. I still remember the pain I felt when someone else was given more importance than me, that really pained, as I felt that I was in no way lesser than the other.

    As I grew up I started feeling the pain when a friend spurned my advances for friendship, just because she found me less attractive. It pained and it pained badly when I was wrongly implicated of doing things which I had not actually done. Like when I was blamed of hurting someone powerful whereas actually I had not and because of the fact that I was scared of that person I did not openly say that I had not hurt him or her.

   I have seen people in pain when their close ones have been sick. There was this friend of mine who had a mentally challenged daughter. She was is constant pain as she could do nothing to cure her daughter, though she was brave enough to bring up her daughter in a very positive manner, as she never felt that her daughter was lesser than any other child. She took her child out to every party and outing and was never ashamed that she had such a daughter, but her whole family was in constant pain,In pain because they could not cure the child and had to see her suffer everyday. This is such an intense pain which any parent goes through when his child is sick that no other pain equals this pain.

   This same pain is experienced by any person who sees his close one suffer due to disease or any other reason.The close one can suffer due to fact that he has been jilted in love and he can never come out of the shock, it can be the pain of a close one when he is depressed and suffers everyday. When a close one suffers then your heart bleeds and it becomes even more intense when you are helpless and you can do nothing about it. Pain that is felt when you see you own close one in pain is even more painful than the pain which you feel for yourself.

   Pain is also felt when justice is denied to you. Like if you are wronged due to some reason, someone powerful has hurt you and when the time has come for him to be punished then you can’t do anything as he is very powerful. This kind of pain quietly enters your life ,when for years you struggle against this powerful person and you become helpless as no matter how much you try, you can’t do anything as he is very powerful and law is also on his side. There is a saying that “justice delayed is justice denied”, but during the time it is delayed you feel intense pain as you feel all the doors are closed and you can never find justice.

   The people who face this situation where justice is denied to them become very disappointed as things are not turning around as they want them to turn around, but the positive factor of facing so much pain is that they become more powerful and determined and as time passes they become more strong and they want to defeat their adversary no matter what.

   Pain is also felt when your child does not live up to your expectations and he is not as successful in life as he should be.You also feel pain because of child when he turns out to be selfish and does not take care of his parents when he grows and becomes independent.

   When a lover is jilted by his paramour then the pain is very intense and sometimes the one who is jilted cannot come out of this pain in his entire life! To be rejected in love is a very intense pain and when a person faces that pain then at times he is even driven to take his life! Henceforth a person should be sensible enough that if you are rejected in love then you should not lose your rationale and let good sense prevail and do things which will not harm you and none of your resulting actions should be the cause of pain for any of your close ones.

   Now if I try to really go into the details of the vast range of things which cause pain to any of us then I will write so much that you will feel bored at a certain stage, so let me leave it at this stage and I am sure all of you might have understood how pain manifests itself in so many different ways in our lives.No matter how it manifests itself, pain should not rule your life in such a way that you lose your sense of judgement. One should understand that pain is there in every person’s life and the wise person is that who takes it in his stride and becomes stronger and faces it with all his might and comes out victorious after facing it with grit and determination.

   Pain is there in various forms and because it is there we can understand what is the meaning of pleasure and when we feel the pleasure after a long phase of pain, then and only we understand the intensity of the pain in which we were. When we are going though pain, we are like facing a storm, but when the pain recedes, it is then that we realise that how much pain we were facing. So we should face pain bravely and as time passes we will come out of it and enjoy the pleasures of life.

I am really sad today.Now you will ask me that what has made me sad. There is not one reason but many reasons. When a person feels lost and lonely and absolutely unwanted and neglected, then you feel sad, like I am feeling sad at this moment.It is not that I have not experienced this emotion anytime earlier in my life, I have experienced it countless times and mostly in similar situations.

    It is this constant feeling of feeling unwanted and the feeling of being helpless in the face of it.I have always been a very strong person and even the most adverse situations have seen me in total control of myself. But whenever I face this situation of feeling unwanted and uncared for, I feel totally helpless and I really don’t know what to do.

   I am feeling so sad, that my soul is crying out to God and asking as to why am I subject to so much sorrow.Where have I gone wrong and where does my fault lie.Time will change and things will become better that is the only hope, but now after all this time I seem to have lost hope and I know I will face this indifference all through my life.

  When you feel sad then everything around you does not seem to have any meaning.I have been facing this kind of sadness since the last so many years and when I try to evaluate, as to what is the reason behind it then I fail to understand what is the reason.Maybe I had hurt someone in my previous birth, so maybe because of it I have to continuously face the same situation again and again.

   Sometimes life is so complex and things are so complicated that no matter what effort you put, you have to face desperation and disgust every time.I don’t why but other than my childhood. life has been particularly difficult for me when it came to certain relations.When I changed cities then I had troubles facing different situations with different relations.I have had so many disappointments in my life that I feel that maybe something is wrong with me that I always get sadness and desperation in return.

  I am not saying that I have not had happy moments in my life but when I think of my past and to some extent my present too, then I feel that there is strong undertone of sadness below all the good picture which is portrayed in front of the world.It is not that I have not tried to improve things so that I am not faced with the same situation of disgust every time, I have tried but somehow I have not got the desired results after all the changes I have made and so I have to face same situation again and again.It is a vicious circle which keps repeating itself.

  Sadness has become such an integral part of my life that now I feel that nothing can change for the better ever.I have lost all hope and now I don’t want to change anything. I just want to keep quiet and wait and watch and see what will happen in the coming phase of time.My sadness has taken the shape of a never ending grief and I now seem to have no hope that things will change, though a part of me feels that things will change as I am die-hard optimist, but still that hope for change is very less.

  A part of me feels that all this present situation is just a passing phase and as time passes things will change drastically and I will eventually forget all sorrow, but I really don’t know when that will happen.I have made certain resolutions and I will change certain things in my life, but I am having doubts as to whether those changes will bring about any positive change in my life or no.

  Well lets see that is life, it presents before you  various challenges and when you pass that phase of challenges, you become more mature and wiser, I think God wants me to learn certain things in life the harder way, that is why he has his ways of teaching me this.I feel I have understood his message and I will try and make things better so I don’t face this situation which makes me sad again and again.