Peace is divine. The feeling of being at peace is very difficult to explain in words. But I must say that this is one state of mind, where I feel at such ease and comfort, that I feel that anyone who reaches this state of mind would be in a different zone altogether, a zone which is very close to Divinity!

The peace that I feel now, is because of a lot of reasons. I have seen fifteen months of tumult and change in my life not only in my inner self, but also in a lot of my relationships, for the better. Things have skyrocketed at an upward tangent and changed at a breakneck speed in all directions, personally, physically and most of all at a spiritual level.

During this journey, I did not know, that where will it take me, or what will I achieve, I just kept going according to my hearts desires.

I began this new chapter of self-transformation, in August last year, after my kids flew out of my nest to make a life of their own. I did not think too much, of what I would achieve, whether it was in the physical well-being, mental or spiritual spheres and took one day at a time. With this approach of going with the flow and acting according to the challenges I faced, at each juncture and achieving success, I kept scaling new heights and reaching my goals.

There were numerous bumps and hurdles on the way, but, as I was determined to move on and be victorious no matter what, they did not act as a deterrent in any way.

Now when I look back, I feel very proud of myself, that I have done a great job, all through! The entire journey of this period, has been no less than a roller coaster ride! It was packed with thrilling moments of joy and victory and quite a few moments full of despair and darkness.To sum it up, it was a fantastic journey and I learnt a lot, from various experiences of mine.

The most cherished and endearing change that I have experienced during this phase is the complete revival of the relationship with my husband. Our bond has steered towards an entirely new direction, where it keeps becoming better and better, with each passing day.

The peaceful state of mind, I am in now, has come after months of prayers for all my loved ones. Now when I see that they are happy and content, I feel happy and at peace.

My kids are happy and content. They do face challenges in their lives, time and again, but, I am always there to support them, through any difficulty.

My staunch Faith in God, has helped me pull through this entire phase and now I feel like as though I am sitting on the other side of the finishing line, after having won a long drawn, race filled with tenacity and menacing challenges, which threatened my very existence!

It is very rightfully said that,”Nothing tastes better than success!”, and I am now tasting that success and feeling so peaceful and glad, that my soul is dancing with joy and singing the praises of the Lord Almighty and thanking him for bringing me in this space of Peaceful Divinity!

At times, you come at a stage when life is just like a flowing river, which is flowing with so much calm and hardly any ripples, and it appears like as though the river is also bored by flowing with so much calm!

Life usually attains this calm at various junctures and even though when we are going through this calm phase, we feel a bit too relaxed and at ease, but then boredom sets in and that is when you feel that there should be some change.

You feel restless and you start looking for opportunities where you can occupy yourself mentally. You try to find some outlet to your buckled up emotions but the main issue is that you yourself are unaware that what is it that you are looking for. On the one side you seem to be so much at peace and you just do not want to get out of the comfort zone and on the other side the itch within you that keeps pestering you to get back into action keeps bothering you. This itch starts at a smaller level and gradually it increases and you just cannot ignore it and you have to start thinking of what you need to do, so that the itch goes away.

Mostly people who like to be actively involved in doing something or the other are quite at unease when they face this period of lull and they just cannot seem to be comfortable in this phase of flowing at a calm pace. Unless there is action and excitement, people like these do not stay still and they are not able to digest this face of inaction, no matter how much at peace they are.

It is due to this desire of staying in action, they keep moving on and scale new heights in their lives professionally and personally. Life is more like a roller coaster ride for them as they seem to be insatiable and they want more and more. The best part is that they are not satisfied with achieving just the bare minimum of whatever they are aspiring to do. They have the desire to excel and put in their best foot forward in whatever they wish to do.

For most of them life moves like waves, with phases of ups and downs and the downs for them are loathed by them, as they do not like be in the shadows, they like to be in the light of their own work and keep working hard for whatever goals they have and will do anything to fulfill them, come what may.

Lulls in the life of anyone is like a way in which time ensures that you get your well deserved rest before you venture out towards another journey, achieving another set of goals. These lull periods are an essential aspect of anyone’s life, as they refuel you with infused energy, and you are raring to move forward and make a path for yourself, where you happily want to do so many things, with renewed energy!

Hunger drives men to achieve,
Hunger drives men to perceive,
Hunger pushes men to strive for a reprieve,
Hunger is the driving force in all humanity, Hunger for knowledge, fame, beauty, and prosperity,
But a content man is that man, who overcomes his desires,
Looks around for happiness in the smiles of his family for whom he aspires,
Hunger is there in humanity for his existence and sustenance,
Not for indolence and vengeance,
A sane man should love life and strive to make relationships,
Bear with life through hardships,
Then hunger will not overpower him,
He will overpower Hunger

Thar is the power of Hunger

Wives are tender, they are delicate, and slender, and they are not dependent on the male gender,
As they are a good handler,
Not only of their lives,
But of their family’s lives,
They can breathe, live, enjoy, sustain and nourish,
As they are blessed by God to flourish,
Women are independent, They are not dependent,
Henceforth the wives should understand,
They don’t need hubbies to stand and need another hand,
They should live their lives, with a free mind,
And flourish in this beautiful land,
Which is a gift of God,
They are not only creations of God,
They are blessed with the “Power” of bringing in the future creations of God!
Henceforth my dear wives, wake up and break the shackles of being,” Hubby Dependant “,
Live life to the fullest and enjoy every moment of it!
Be carefree and have complete faith in yourselves, as you absolutely don’t need anyone, you are whole, you are an institution!

Life has brought me to a state of mind, where along with being at peace spiritually, I still feel that I am trapped at many levels emotionally. Despite my strong and concerted efforts to sort out things and make things around me to be harmonious and comfortable, I tend to get so worked up with trivial issues and they affect me mentally.

On a personal level, for me, mental peace is very important. No matter how much I try to smoothen out the knots of communication and make this easy for me, they tend to get complicated more and more. Now at this stage when I feel that I am in a good space, with my communications, then suddenly in certain situations, things turn on their head and it feels like I have hit a wall. Like as though all the efforts I had put into sorting the knots have got entangled once again and I have to start from square one.

It is the most frustrating feeling and now I feel so trapped and helpless, that I really don’t know, how I can sort out this dilemma of mine. On the one side, I have no escape from it, I have to face it, on the other side I feel so sad that why do I have to keep facing it again and again. The same kind of emotional trauma, the same kind of emotional turmoil, which pops up time and again, just like an unavoidable thorny hurdle, which has to be confronted, defeated, and crushed.

The worst part is that I have to live with it every moment. When I feel relaxed and I take a breather and say to myself that now this tough phase has passed, just then another knot crops up and teases me with a crooked smile and asks me defiantly, “Tell me now what will you do?” I am fed up picking my swords and fighting, how much will I fight, till when. That is one question that I keep asking myself.

Life is good, very very good. I have come to a stage in my life, where now if I look back, I feel so proud of myself when I evaluate myself and see how much I have achieved and how much determination and strength I had, to face each situation, with sheer grit and inner power. My savior my Lord Almighty has been by my side and supported me, heard my prayers and granted all my wishes. I am filled with gratitude, for all that I have been blessed with. Each and every prayer of mine has been answered.

I have learned so much in the past six months in my professional life and personal life that there was no end to the amount of experience, understanding and along with that I felt a tremendous amount of pain which was felt at such a deep level, that it shook me on a spiritual level.

I was shaken beyond reality and my mind plunged into a state, where you feel that you are like a twig flowing in an extremely fast flowing and angry river which is threatening your very existence! I was lost totally aimless and hit a rock bottom. But time is the biggest healer and as time passed, I healed from the pain and revived my inner energies.

Now when I am in a very peaceful space and again and again I see the same kind challenges in my personal life, then I feel trapped, desperate and frustrated and I feel like a fluttering bird caught in a thorny hedge, who keeps getting more more deep gashes on her body, every time she tries to move even an inch. I have to move as I want to live, to survive, but the challenges keep coming up just like how a cobra puts up its head ready to bite you and knock you dead!

I feel trapped as I have no choice but to continue living like this due to many many strong reasons. It is extremely tough to stay in this state of life, where on one side you are at peace with your own self and on the other side you come face to face with challenges every day. It requires a humongous amount of patience and perseverance to maintain your cool in the face of these challenges.

But I know I will do it. In fact ‘I have devised a very novel method to literally stop them from cropping up in the first place.The process has begun and I know that today I am writing about being trapped emotionally, but there will come a day when I will write a blog which will be titled Free forever!

I know that and believe it totally that I will be free.”

Loved these lines I read somewhere and would love to share them with all of you.

The words are:

Life always has new tasks for us. We
have to accept them and try to solve
them in the best possible way so that
we can live again with satisfaction.
Perhaps these tasks are there so that
we appreciate it again when we are
doing well.

How nicely these words summarize the basic crux of the lives of each one of us. This is what life is all about. All of us have challenges and we have to solve them in the best possible way. If we do that, only then do we derive an immense sense of satisfaction.

The best part of these lines is the second one, which is replete with positivity. The writer says that perhaps these challenges come our way so that when we look back at ourselves dealing with them and solving them satisfactorily, then we should appreciate ourselves and never forget those times even when we are doing well.

I was very inspired by these words. Do give them a thought.

Life is like you are in a turmoil , if you unravel it and ultimately go past a huge hurricane of troubles and tribulations and taste sweet SUCCESS ,after settings things right,it is only then you realise that, Oh God!, I had faced this earlier and you share a small laugh with yourself ,that it was Life again, which was playing its usual hunky dory Game!!!!

I am a soul who is content

With no vested intent

Life gave me joy in abundance

As God’s blessings were there in semblance

I am like a little stream

Who flows with a bag full of dreams

At times that bag opens up

And I quickly gallop

To see my dream being fulfilled

And my eyes are filled

With a sense of satisfying joy

And I heave a sigh of relief and heart bounces with a flipping buoy

But then I counter a boulder

And I shiver and shudder

As I am hurt, pained and I suffer

As that boulder makes my heart and soul to shake with a jitter

I am at a loss, flummoxed and baffled

Thinking what to do as the pain leaves my mind befuddled

But then a quiet inner voice calls me

And tells me that bear with the pain and please hear me

This is Me and I am You

The cute, gentle but strong Me, who is always there with you,

And I am not alone,

As he is there with me, soothing my soul when You groan

So that is Me, and with You and Him, I am Me

I love Me as he has made Me

People reach places and continue on a journey of adventures and once you face a multitude of adventures, you feel stagnated and complacent.

At this time you are at a juncture of life when you feel that you have achieved a lot and you have reached that point, where you have got all that you aspired and worked hard for, you feel challenged, as the complacency sets in and you start relaxing and taking it easy.

At this juncture, you really need to delve deep into the purpose of each adventure that you had thought of and each goal that you have reached and then decide the further course of action. Life at this particular time is very challenging as you really do not know, that after all the zeal and enthusiasm with which you have thought of these goals, are you really poised to surge forward and muster up the required energy to work towards making those dreams a reality

This is the time when you are exhilarated, no doubt and the sense of victory clouds your thought processes and you feel, that now that the goals are set, so it will be a cakewalk to walk towards making those dreams a reality. But, here is the catch! When you think deeply and you weigh your options and see all the grueling hard work required to only start working towards those goals, you start getting the jitters and you suddenly feel that how am going to do all this!

Haha! That is the juncture at which I am in right now and I am feeling perplexed as to what on earth was going on in my mind when I thought of picking up such diverse goals and how on earth would I actually reach my targets and fulfill my dreams projects! Well well that is the fun, first, you think and then you decide and then you get the opportunity and then you think that now how do I work towards them!

Life has always been a roller coaster ride for me and I am not an impulsive person, who sets goals just as a whim or a fancy. I carefully think and plan and then set a goal, but I have a typical flaw in my nature that I take up multiple goals and when I get the opportunity to work towards those goals, I realize that they require a tremendous amount of hard work and this is the time when I feel the crunch and understand that how much effort I can put in achieving each goal.

Earlier I used to get lax and as I would lose interest in working towards all the goals together, as I would get exhausted, henceforth gradually, I would drop them one by one, and ultimately I would be left with nothing to do! But, this time I have decided that I would not repeat the same mistake, once again and I will work hard towards all the goals with complete sincerity and put in my best efforts and I am certain that after a period of time I will achieve the best of results on these individual goals.

This Juncture of my life is no doubt challenging and just like clockwork precision, I have faced similar scenarios time and again, but, this time around I am going to overcome this flaw of mine to be complacent and lazy after setting up goals. I am going to work hard and fulfill my dreams and I am sure that this time I will be successful in writing a new chapter in my life as a successful writer, teacher, and devoted social worker.